dislike?
-sigh-
its been about a year here, and … i *still* feel like an outsider looking in.
it been a while since i realised that a lot of people dont really like me (but tolerate me) … and the rest actively dislike me. most of the time, i just ignore it –> being blur really is a blessing sometimes.. but once a while it just gets me down. like now. and its not only the singaporeans… i cant seem to "click" with most of the scholars either.
am i really that bad?
i mean .. knowing 200 people and having only 3-4 pretty good friends .. is quite sad.
but ive said it before, and ill say it again, its not that bad being a loner. and i can be a loner, and survive, and perhaps even thrive.
hope itll never come to that tho.
looking back, i have never been fully integrated with the "popular clique" or indeed in any clique more than 3 ppl. even since primary school… i was always the one, well.. hanging on at the outskirts of the group, i guess.
i suppose i *am* slightly *odd*.
just grateful that i have managed to make good friends (even if the number be only 1 or 2) in every place ive been dumped in. so far. not sure how long itll last tho. cuz it looks like in the near future ill be very much a loner.
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haha. just realised this entry (or indeed, the entire blog) is very me-centric.
thats the reason its called a personal blog.
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eve.
October 20th, 2006 at 7:28 am
dear eve,
u rock! hhahahhahhahha…
not all frens might be anywhere ard close (literally) but do keep in heart dat they’re n always behind u wherever, whenever. u’re who u r n we like u 4 who u r. cheer up yeah
October 20th, 2006 at 7:43 am
ah…you know my views on this very touchy and delicate subject….I say, we rule!
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eve: and here’s a toast to that! *raises milo peng kau*
October 20th, 2006 at 8:10 am
Well Eve, the fact that ppl dont like u doenst necessarily mean u hv a problem. sometimes its them. dun be too hard on urself. one thing when facing the world, u got to be prepared to face it alone. But God is always there so no worries. The reason u may say Hes not there is probably bcoz u din ask Him to come along with u. Ppl need to be invited, so does God.
October 21st, 2006 at 7:31 am
TO all the above : Yeah u got it right!!!!(i mean the ‘we rule’ part) I wrote an essay on “it pays to be diff than society” (no doubt pretty badly written but hey, i tried - check Kant’s ethic’s rule :P) and well, who wants to be “just like everyone else?” and like darren says “who says it’s u?”
Fine, i give; ur “different” ahahah.. but differently good. =) ppl like u (and i quote) ” wll not need anyone’s help to survive in the world”.
being in the popular clique may seem cool but truthfully speaking, its not. it’s stressful cus u gotta keep on thinking and feeling “what r they gonna think of me” and those crap. personally, i’ve always admired ur ability to mix and make new friends. new really tolerating friends (LOL) =P so cheers.
what others may think of u shouldnt matter; its what ppl who matters to u think tht counts.
sry im blabbing alot because actually, i felt v much like this as well here. but .. i’ve got chun church members =)
take care,pal.
October 21st, 2006 at 7:35 am
oops im so sorry i forgot this
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FANFICTION!?!?!?!?!?!? OMGGGGGGGGGGG.
*knocks on eve’s skull* “Helo mr alien? i think ur overdoing it”
ps- since ur at reading mangas. try d-gray man. pretty cool too. n try slam dunk and ranma half(1/2) for comedies.
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usual coment on the coment from eve …. –>
im not reading mangas, im watching anime. and only one anime at that. plus i think fanfiction is cool. =D
and the alien in my head has vacated the premises for a bunch of lunatics. Meet Happy, Crazy and Nuts.
October 21st, 2006 at 9:35 am
being odd isn’t necessarily bad… at least I have to believe it isn’t a bad thing…
besides, they *do* say that you’re lucky if you can find 2 or 3 (truly) good friends in life.
as for the “popular clique”, I guess people should like you for who you are, not for who they want you to be.