yet another pointless blog…

-sigh-

its been about a year here, and … i *still* feel like an outsider looking in.

it been a while since i realised that a lot of people dont really like me (but tolerate me) … and the rest actively dislike me. most of the time, i just ignore it –> being blur really is a blessing sometimes.. but once a while it just gets me down. like now. and its not only the singaporeans… i cant seem to "click" with most of the scholars either.

am i really that bad?

i mean .. knowing 200 people and having only 3-4 pretty good friends .. is quite sad.

but ive said it before, and ill say it again, its not that bad being a loner. and i can be a loner, and survive, and perhaps even thrive.

hope itll never come to that tho.

looking back, i have never been fully integrated with the "popular clique" or indeed in any clique more than 3 ppl. even since primary school… i was always the one, well.. hanging on at the outskirts of the group, i guess.

i suppose i *am* slightly *odd*.

just grateful that i have managed to make good friends (even if the number be only 1 or 2) in every place ive been dumped in. so far. not sure how long itll last tho. cuz it looks like in the near future ill be very much a loner.

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haha. just realised this entry (or indeed, the entire blog) is very me-centric.

thats the reason its called a personal blog.
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eve.

And after promos, i’m stuck with this huge chunk of time on my hand, with little to do - even less than previously where i would have taken some time off to do some exercise. (as per normal, outta sheer boredom). Meaning, i need to find things to occupy my time with.

Funny though, i cant seem to find one activity and stick to it - not unless you count reading (right now im going thru fanfiction - bleach, harry potter, full metal alchemist, spirited away). My energies now seem to be divided every which way, with me picking to do something more or less at a whim..

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Things ive done (or halfway done, or partially started) already : -

Ive picked up playing my saxophone again. Now im trying to pick up Mulan’s Reflections by ear, as well as an assorted collection of other pop tunes… not very successfully. (Ask ms sam how bad i sound, i played to her over msn muahahahahaha)

Another pointless passing fad is me drawing (!!!). ok. this one, was started during one of the after-promo lectures - in which i was bored outta my mind. so instead of my normal doodling (squares and circles and lines) i started to draw faces, actually trying (well halfway trying) to do it "properly" as in more detailed than the normal smiley faces… then i added on bodies, backgrounds… etc. - im no genius, but at least my things are *recognizable*.

Writing fanfiction. *wince* yeah, im trying to write… stories.. *hears gasps from stick, jolynn etc* as contrasted to the "eve who always always writes factual essays for school and never ever ever writes fiction". haha. well… im… 2.5k (2500 words - only) through this bleach-inspired piece (thank goodness bleach is rather obscure in acs)

Downloading and playing adventure games -self explanotary-

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And now for the things id like to do (but probably will never get around to doing it)

CLEAN MY ROOM!!

and theres the whole temptation of adding more features to my mutatorlite, however since ive exausted the less complex options, whats left is more… complicated… and thus more scary. meaning that i may never get the guts (or time, or inclination) to start tampering again. but if i do, a few options - adding anagram maker, or trying for a simple brute force cracker for the multi shifts, or figuring out the extra scramble feature.

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I guess boredom isnt really that bad haha. actually im quite enjoying myself… *grin*

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(deep breath) on a side note, rumours are 2 ppl from 2906 didnt meet the promotional criteria. So.. our -already small- class my shrink further. *wince*

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eve. (PROMOSAREOVER!!)