exams over
yeah. mid years are over. *grin* i think i didnt do that badly. but im not making any predictions cuz i dont know the answer scheme and cant gauge what marks ill get. any anyway.. who cares?
but exams are not exactly rare occasions .. theyll be a lot more of those — at least in the next few years. gotta get used to em. somehow.
and i realised its harder to study when im not living at home. cuz when im at home, with parents around… its not that they nag me (much) to study, but .. tempatations seem less desireble with them nearby. i really doubt that i would have used this time’s crazy study schedule — 1 day per subject =D can you believe it? — if i were at home.
(lol. the full story is even more amusing..complete with "tribal dances" around lecture notes, computer games, anime, dinnertime conversations and much more… but i realised this blog is not exactly as private as all that…)
self discipline isnt all that its cracked up to be. i wonder if ill ever buckle down and work harder… cuz it still seems like im doing the least amount of studying as far as time spent is concerned.. *ironically, im taking the most number of subjects*
i cant get the knack of really concentrating on books. unless most of the other people here. i wonder if there’s anything wrong.. but everyone’s different. i really dont know.
the thing is, a lot of the ppl i meet here have a goal/ambition in mind. im one of the few people who can honestly say that i really dont know what i want to be. choices, choices, decisions, decisions. still trying to find my path, trying to figure out what - life - is really about. im beginning to think having too many options is bad. but i guess its better than too little.
mood swings .. ah this time around i didnt have mood swings that were -that- drastic. too busy i guess, trying to cram 6 months of schoolwork into 6 days of studying. yeah, i have really great study habits. *rolls eyes*
ultimately, i guess, i just want to be happy. its that simple. but, at the same time, its not as simple as all that, cuz happiness is by nature elusive. (unless of cuz u induce euphoria chemically with drugs)…
and theres the ever present problem of getting enough sleep/rest while keeping up with everything.
–eve–
