another day
day after day, time pass away …
and im wondering when all this’ll become routine.
tests are coming, biggest one next week being Bio Practical (A-Levels) Examination… which is scary, considering ive never being able to complete a prac in time. we’ll see how things go, cuz it is Very Important but i am really not so hopeful that i’ll be able to do well.
guess ill just have to cross my fingers and hope for the best.
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i need to start to do my homework on Saturdays instead of (literally) lying in bed the whole day. Because i have a lot to study, a lot to catch up on… and im doing nothing useful but watching old movies on my laptop… is there something wrong with me?
or rather … is there something wrong with the whole idea of me being here?
*sigh*
yep, ive noticed that there’s hardly an optimistic post on my blog. i know in my mind, that things will get better as i get more accustomed to post-form-5 life. but my heart seems dead set against believeing that it would improve. maybe its just (as usual) homesickness.
… but the thing is … its been four months already. FOUR. and i still dont feel like ive quite fitted in yet. on the other hand, i can survive as a loner so i guess that isnt such a big issue. but still, it is a change from being with ppl that i just "click" with, which ive been lucky enough to have practically my whole sec school life.
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yesterday. was. *sigh*
3 tests, phys, econs and p.e.
and i managed to ace the most useless of them all (p.e - 2.4km run in 13 mins 12 secs which i am quite proud off)
However… bad feeling about both phys and econs … cuz… not enough time to finish, plus the fact that i didnt know what i was writing. so, im predicting a barely-pass for both of them. if im lucky.
i should be doing better than this.
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perhaps i have to stop focusing on what "i should" but instead look to what "i am".
…. and perhaps one day the sky will turn neon green with pink polka dots on it.
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yeah, right.
May 11th, 2006 at 9:07 pm
hey.. just wanna pop in a message of encouragement here. i know i cant say much n that i dont even have the rights to say this, but eventually everything will get better. looking at my past posts.. u could say im feeling almost what ur feeling..
i didnt get jpa (if u did, u have my heartiest congratulations =] )
have to keep on going.. one day this will all be over. and … ur not alone. not ever
May 15th, 2006 at 8:47 am
pS: if you ever find yourself with too much time(or seem to have too much time but actually don’t), apart from old movies, you can try anime!