spm results
10 A1s.
nice right?
but… thats not the complete one.. actually is 10a1 and 1 a2. bm threw me. I know… lotsa ppl would like my results.. even so, somehow i just feel… down.
almost everywhere i look, ppl are doing better than me… resultswise. or maybe im lookin in the wrong places… but the fact is this : when comparing… ppl always compare with the best. and the fact is, as far as spm results is concerned… im not the best.
so im feeling a little down. ok, fine, a lot down. when expectations are high, and i know that i should be able to do better…. getting a2 for bm just spoils everything.
bm… is partly a matter of luck. but the what ifs are starting to pile up. what if i wrote just that little bit better? what if i had studied komsas harder? what if ….
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i dont know. its best if i dont dwell on it. its better to get on with the rest of my life. sometimes getting up again is harder than it sounds, i dunno, maybe ill feel better tomorow, maybe ill be able to state my results without feeling sad, maybe just maybe.
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but i got stuff to do, no time to do it in. so its bad to spend time brooding… at last count, i need to fill 3 forms (a lota stuff to fill in trust me), get a haircut, go shopping, visit school, visit post office, etc etc etc.
and here i am sitting here writing whining posts in my blog.
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its just . not fair? i cant really say that cuz i know mostly everyone gets the results they deserve. maybe i just aint good enuff in bm.
at least i still have straight As
at least.
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eve.
