yet another pointless blog…

You know you’re suicidal (Singapore Junior College Life) when…

- you take more than one CCA
     - one of them is Student Council
     - one of them is super-active (i.e. anything more than twice a week)
         - all are super active
     - you’re in a EXCO
         - all the EXCOs

- you take more than the minumum required number of subjects
     - and planning to take H3
     - and signing up for research projects
     - and involved in the Olympiad competition
          - for more than one subject

- you get less than 6 hours of sleep per night
      - less than 4
      - sleep? what sleep? i nap during lectures

- you regularly skip lunch
      - and breakfast
      - and break
      - and regard quick mee as the best meal on earth

- you spend more than 10 hours per day at school
      - more than 12
      - and come back during saturdays
      - every saturday

- you spend more than 5 hours per week at a university
      - at 2 or more universities
      - all the lab technicians know you by name

- you double-book your weekends
      - and holidays

- your dinner is always after 8 pm
      - after 9
      - you dont eat dinner at all

- you see your roommate less than thrice a week
      - less than twice
      - you never see your roommate

haha. so im not quite there yet, but fast approaching (hopefully i’ll have the presence of mind to put a brake on all this sooner rather than later)

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anyway, my class has a total of 23 people. which is not bad. the bad part is… there’s only SIX girls. akk. so the ratio of girls to boys is 1 : 3. NOT good. Heck, there’s more indian guys in my class than there are girls. (not to prejudice anyone against indians, but i do want to make a point.)

Other than that, i’ve settled on a CCA, finally, lol. and its… ODAC (Outdoor Activities Club). muahahahahahhhahahahaha. it’s so NOT what i was deciding in the 1st term but what the heck, it sounds fun. so ill just sit back, relax, and enjoy the ride…and hope i won’t regret it.

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personality testing today, conducted by the school (which is a COMPULSARY event, but yeah was quite fun.)

i ended up —

E - Extraversion (Clear) not Introversion
N - Intuition (Clear) not Sensing
T - Thinking (V. Clear) not Feeling
P - Perceiving (V. Clear) not Judging.

Not altogether unexpected, once they’d explained the terms (Im lazy to explain, look it up urself, its called the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator)

Summary of ENTPs — ill retype it for everyone — uhhuh, im a bit bored right now.

  "Quick, ingenious, stimulating, alert and outspoken. Resoureful in solving new and challenging problems. Adept at    generating  conceptual possibilities and then analyzing them strategically. Good at reading other people(???). Bored by routine, will  seldom do the same thing the same way, apt to turn to one new interest after another."

and a warning given by the lecturer : "when ENTPs are stressed, they tend to be very obsessive about something. THEY MIGHT BECOME STALKERS." ahaks. SO guys, BE AFRAID. BE VERY AFRAID.

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eve.

10 A1s.
nice right?

but… thats not the complete one.. actually is 10a1 and 1 a2. bm threw me. I know… lotsa ppl would like my results.. even so, somehow i just feel… down.

almost everywhere i look, ppl are doing better than me… resultswise. or maybe im lookin in the wrong places… but the fact is this : when comparing… ppl always compare with the best. and the fact is, as far as spm results is concerned… im not the best.

so im feeling a little down. ok, fine, a lot down. when expectations are high, and i know that i should be able to do better…. getting a2 for bm just spoils everything.

bm… is partly a matter of luck. but the what ifs are starting to pile up. what if i wrote just that little bit better? what if i had studied komsas harder? what if ….

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i dont know. its best if i dont dwell on it. its better to get on with the rest of my life. sometimes getting up again is harder than it sounds, i dunno, maybe ill feel better tomorow, maybe ill be able to state my results without feeling sad, maybe just maybe.

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but i got stuff to do, no time to do it in. so its bad to spend time brooding… at last count, i need to fill 3 forms (a lota stuff to fill in trust me), get a haircut, go shopping, visit school, visit post office, etc etc etc.

and here i am sitting here writing whining posts in my blog.

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its just . not fair? i cant really say that cuz i know mostly everyone gets the results they deserve. maybe i just aint good enuff in bm.

at least i still have straight As

at least.
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eve.

YAY!!!!

NO HOMEWORK, NO CLASSES, NO LECTURES .. for at least another TWO weeks. WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *but i still have school next week, its orientation 2. which means ill be bored to death. judging from experience… half the time ill be half awake, and the other half the time ill be half asleep. so. lovely days.

NO HOMEWORK !! yayayayayayayyayayayay

yep… im getting nuts cuz i dont have homework to complete. other than that… not much other news to say. so this will be a short redundant post.

eve.